Thursday 27 December 2012

Welcome to my new adventure! A few people have been encouraging me to start a blog where I can talk about what's important to me. I think they just don't want me ranting on FB but I'll take it as they didn't hate my writing. I've tried journalling in the past and it never stuck so we'll see how well I do here. 
So, here goes. I am discovering that I have been on a journey of sorts since 2005. it started with a difficult but necessary decision to leave my marriage. I rode the 'high' of that for a few years revelling in my new found freedom. Since then I've made a few career decisions that have turned out to be, if not disasterous, at least wrong. Why is it at my age I'm still trying to figure out where I belong? Mom died Christmas day 2010 and without really realizing it I lost my anchor. For the first time in my life I am alone. Don't get me wrong I have the support of my kids and my few good friends but in her way mom helped steer me. We had so many interests in common and I no longer have that sounding board.
 
Now I'm here in snowy Muskoka working hard at being able to stay. Which currently means driving 250kms a day because jobs that pay a living wage are scarce up here. My dreams of opening the bakery are on the back burner while I reconsider my approach to the business.

On a lighter note, I had a lovely, albeit short, Christmas. Everyone except Alex was home. We had no extra invites this year so the family mix wasn't thrown off. We watched movies, played video games and napped. Christmas dinner wasn't my usual grand affair that sends me into a frenzy and it was still delicious. I happened on a giant ham, bone in & crackles ( yumm), that ended up being delicious. We have enough left to feed an army but hey, no menu planning for a while! We were so stuffed that no one wanted dessert. You all forgot to take cookies home with you! I'll bring care packages when I take Jeff back to school.

There, that's the beginning. I want to wish everyone a Happy New Year, onward and upward and all that.